We are continuing on the roller coaster. I’ve been home for a couple days now and we are getting back to “normalcy.” Even though I feel much better than I did in the hospital, I am realizing my strength, energy, and patience isn’t what it used to be. I’ve loved getting back to family life, but am frustrated that my body can’t be the dad and the husband that I normally am. The pain keeps me down, and my energy is drained very easily. Food doesn’t sound all that appealing to me, and when I eat, it’s a little at a time, contributing to continued loss of weight (which isn’t a good thing this time.)
And dealing with the medical world is frustrating. The last thing I want to do is lengthen the waiting time for this to be resolved, but that is exactly what is happening. After leaving the hospital, I was told that they needed to do a couple more tests, but the pathologists ran out of my tissue needed for those tests. Therefore, they need ANOTHER biopsy… They also told me the blood work they started on the day I was discharged could take up to 2 weeks to complete. As of now, the biopsy is scheduled for February 3, but I will be pushing hard for an earlier date. We are praying for quick results from the blood tests. I also have another PET/CT scan next week on Thursday. All these must be completed before surgery, which will have to be pushed back 1-2 weeks. The delay shouldn’t put me at further risk. I’m trying to remember Philippians 4:6 which says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Maybe God wants us to trust in Him for a while longer while He continues to work…
We are beginning to see the medical bills get processed, and now that I am home, I am trying to balance the “trusting God” and the “worrying about/planning for expenses” feelings. Many people have asked to help us – whether it be childcare, meals, or with finances. We are so grateful for the support of everyone and are blown away by the offers. We simply haven’t had time to process much, other than what we are going through. My family has graciously set up a GoFundMe account on our behalf. (www.gofundme.com/f/ryanscancerjourney) I’ve strived to provide for my family but have to humble myself, knowing that our situation has changed and some things we can’t plan for. We welcome any kind of support from anyone, whether financial or with prayers. The prayers alone have been life-changing!
Again we wait. Please continue to pray. Not only for us but also to strengthen your relationship with your Heavenly Father. We pray for continued miracles, big and small. We pray that God will continue to reveal his plan and purpose in our lives, and in this situation. We pray that more people come to find that personal relationship with Jesus Christ, and know God’s love for them and the sacrifice He made for our souls. We need only to BELIEVE. 1 Timothy 2:3 says “This is good, and pleases God our Savior, who wants all people to be saved and to come to a knowledge of the Truth.” Romans 10:9-10 says, “If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.”
To be continued:
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